the misadventures of pusakal doll

song of the moment

stray cat — Mon, 16 Apr 2007 23:08:19 +0000

Someday
-Nina-

Someday you’ll gonna realize
One day you’ll see through my eyes
But then i won’t even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if i can’t

I know
You dont really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well i’ve got news for you
I know i’m not that strong
But it won’t take long
Won’t take long

Chorus

Coz someday, someone’s gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone’s gonna take your place
One day i’ll forget about you
You’ll see, i won’t even miss you
Someday, someday

But now
I know you can’t tell
I’m down,and i’m not down anyway
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won’t have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Chorus

Coz someday, someone’s gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone’s gonna take your place
One day i’ll forget about you
You’ll see, i won’t even miss you
Someday, someday

my not so healthy wealth

stray cat — Mon, 09 Apr 2007 17:44:41 +0000

weird, i kinda feel offended when people tell me i’m rich. cause hunny, i am not.
if they only knew how i’m struggling days before payday tryin to figure out where my freakin money went and it all boils down that i did not spend and haven’t saved enuf much for myself.

way back into love

stray cat — Tue, 27 Mar 2007 22:53:21 +0000

i dont know how and why i get goosebumps everytime i hear this song.

lusting

stray cat — Fri, 16 Mar 2007 23:15:34 +0000

These past few weeks, i’ve been lusting to find a roomie. not just an ordinary roomie, but a live-in-partner.

It just came to a point that i want to buy appliances, kitchen wares, living room showcase, etc. but the weird thing is, I don’t want to buy any of this stuff without sharing this w/ someone special. i mean, i can always buy them anytime so my family can use them. but i coudn’t get myself to grab those cute kitchen wares to the counter.

I think this all started when I visited my friends’ condo in makati. I got jealous cause they already furnished their condo and what do I have? An electric fan worth 600 pesos. And, to think my cost of living’s way below theirs and my salary is a peso high.

During college, I’ve always been fascinated and envious for those couple sleeping together and calling themselves innocently as “housemates”. Since I am now working, and trying my best to be mature, I will classify this status as “living together with a partner”. For my future live-in partner, I want us to do the urban-living shopping together. We will hunt for the best-buys and bazaars. We will decide what color our curtains will be. The kind of plates we will have. If we will buy a water dispenser or a ref, if we will buy stainless steel wok or a non-stick pan. We will try a different resto every now and then. I will cook him his favorite food for sure! Then travel when we still have money. But hopefully, he’ll pay most of the bills, hehe. And, if God willing, we will hunt for a second-hand, low-maintenance car (tipid-tipid muna). It’s okay for me if he goes out with his buds, I need some space too. But he should not lay eyes or touch those other creatures. I’m insecure, I still can’t handle that. But I will try, if he’s worth that, I will try not to be soooo possessive. And did I use the word ‘try’?

Actually I’m eyeing this certain guy to be my live-in partner. I don’t think he would be open to that idea. Hehe, we’re not even lovers! And, we’re just kinda friends. Though I’m considering him as one of those few who brings out my colors, I don’t think he feels the same way. He is nice. He is sweet. But he is like that to everyone else. But whoever my live-in partner may be, I just want him to feel loved and cared.

Back on lusting, don’t you think living with a partner is a nice idea? I’m not talking bout the free sex that MIGHT go with it, hehe. But that would be okay. Living with someone will be a new experience and a lesson yet to be learned. Nwyz, I never had a “real” romantic relationship so I guess this fantasy of being a domesticated girlfriend is so light years away.

bloggie

stray cat — Fri, 16 Mar 2007 19:33:41 +0000

dear swayed,

i will invite people to view you once i write a decent entry. i will also prettify you and try my best to make you look as original as possible. i will also optimize wordpress so that you will be as edgy as the other blogs.

lovelots,
stray cat

minsan may pangarap

stray cat — Wed, 14 Mar 2007 21:16:33 +0000

My sis and I were having a coffee date, talking bout everything. When suddenly she uttered, “Malapit ka na grumad… Mamimiss kita. Gusto mo ba grumad?”. At that time, I know I was not goin to grad anytime soon cause I was barely 2% of my sp. I wasn’t making any progress cause I was prioritizing other stuffs and emotionally, I was not into it. I was not into graduating. I answered, “Oo naman… Pero kakalungkot, xempre mamimiss ko kayo”.

Then we talked bout how life would be when we graduate. And we wanted to do the same thing, magpakawala. Define magpakawala. In the sense that we can spend money for vanity, shoes, and indulgence. Hardcore party anytime we want and of course, boylets.

Yeah, gimik and boys. One night stands. The thought of it put a grin on our faces. We realized that graduating will be our sure fire way to break from the unwritten laws that we imposed on ourselves. Only a few can understand the dilemma that we had, no one will look on our every move and no one will look upon us. It’ll be our chance to start a whole new life. The bitchy life that we condemned but secretly hoping to have.

A year after graduating, kelan ba magkakatotoo yung pangarap kong party, boys, and sex galore? Kapag pumuti na ang uwak.

found

stray cat — Tue, 13 Mar 2007 20:42:30 +0000

From someone’s Friendster account,

WHo I want to meet:

somebody adventurous.

somebody willing to try new stuff.

somebody who won’t hide things from me.

somebody who loves travelling.

somebody most people don’t hate.

somebody who won’t be silent most of the time but not too very talkative either.

somebody friendly.

somebody who replies to texts immediately.

somebody who has a decent gimik life.

somebody who’s a humble semi-elitist (oxymoron, haha).

somebody anybody could tolerate.

somebody who isn’t spoiled.

somebody who isn’t rotten to the core.

somebody who won’t be affected by extreme jealousy.

somebody who isn’t really restricting.

somebody who doesn’t smoke (bad kisser), xcept for one-nighters (joke?).

somebody in between conservative and liberated, wahaha.. plus, somebody who cooks very, very good food!!! =P

Boi you already found me… was it my fault that i didn’t ask for your number? or, you were just “nakidaan lang…” talaga? though i know you’re happy with her, i still can’t help but think, what if? nwyz, ~~no bitterness~~, just nasasayangan lang ~~ng konti~~. Sarap ko pa naman sana magluto, hehe.

do not disturb!

stray cat — Fri, 09 Mar 2007 19:48:26 +0000

i hate it when people think they know me, when they reprimand me of doing something i did not.

i need space sometime, can’t you respect that?!

if only…

stray cat — Wed, 07 Mar 2007 19:19:19 +0000

i wish i can hug you to make you feel better…
i wish i have the right.

doomed!

stray cat — Tue, 27 Feb 2007 10:08:07 +0000

i can’t login to my 2 friendster…
i can’t login to my blogspot..
huhuhu

why is this happening?